Anthony Bourdain // Johnny Winter “Life Is Hard” (1992)

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Years ago a co-worker came up to me to recommend that I watch some food & travel show, and not being one much for food & travel shows I scoffed and quickly declined. “It’s not a typical show,” he continued. “I really think you’d relate to this guy. I think you’d want to hang out with this guy.” So, I gave it a shot. The show was No Reservations, its star was Anthony Bourdain, and my co-worker couldn’t have been more right. I was an immediate fan of the show (and its successor, Parts Unknown)¹ and soon became an ardent admirer of Bourdain – for the “pick any 3 dinner guests from history” game, he readily would have the seat at the head of my table. So naturally I, like millions of others literally around the world, was heartbroken at the news this week that while seemingly living a life more full and fantastical than any of us could possibly imagine, he’d chosen to end it.

What was it about Bourdain that made him so treasured, such an ideal to so many? He was first a renegade, a laudable characteristic to the majority of us who readily toe society’s lines. He was a fearless crusader, an enlightened sage, a master wordsmith, an unsentimental historian, a bridge-builder, and a truth-teller. But I think too the strength of the connections we felt were tied to his many triumphant contradictions: He was an adventurer and yet a pragmatist, audacious but not reckless; he was a traditionalist while still fiercely progressive; he was at once a cynic and an optimist, ominously dark and cheerfully whimsical; he was both cerebral and juvenile, sophisticated and vulgar at the same time; he was erudite yet street-wise, uniting the poetic with the prosaic; and critically, in his self-presentation he embodied the perfect blend of swagger and belittlement. His distinctive articulation of stories could be compared to a jazz musician, alternately subtle and minimalist followed by bursts of avant-garde brilliance, like stirring up Louis Armstrong with John Coltrane.

Last night I watched the momentous 2016 episode where Bourdain’s dinner partner for cheap noodles and beer in Hanoi, Vietnam was President Barack Obama. At the close of the scene, Bourdain leans in towards Obama and plaintively asks him, “Is it all gonna be okay?” to which Obama quickly replies, “Yeah. I mean, I think progress is not always a straight line,” before somberly adding, “Y’know there are gonna be moments in any given part of the world where things are terrible. But, having said all that,” – here he took a sizable pause – “I think things are gonna work out” and nodded affirmatively. Bourdain looked across at him earnestly, said “Thank you so much” and then “Cheers!” as they affectionately clicked beer bottles. But in the end, maybe he just didn’t believe the President. One NY Times story cataloguing Bourdain’s journey ended with the following quote of his: “Life is complicated. It’s filled with nuance. It’s unsatisfying. If I believe in anything, it is doubt.” Maybe he was tormented by that uncertainty.

Another quote I found went as follows: “I know what I want. I want it all. I want to try everything once.” Maybe someone with a life as truly incredible as Anthony Bourdain’s just decided he’d already done everything, and that it was time to move on. Who knows. As Johnny Winter sang, life is hard.

¹And yes, the music woven into all the shows was simply outstanding – eclectic, eccentric and exceptional.

 


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